After Shock

It hit me today like a ton of bricks. I had an awareness. I don't really want to go into it but wow. I through and through am in love with my best friend.
When I think of him my heart swells with emotion, indeed. But it's much deeper than that. I feel lost and torn when he isn't around as he is my twin soul. I get a lump in my throat sometimes with emotions I do not yet understand. I find myself doing things with him in mind. I think of him often through out the day. He encompasses many of my thoughts.
I admire and adore this man.
He puts a twinkle in my eye.
SJ